Friday, April 4, 2008
BUSY. TIRED. NEVER ENDING SHOCKS.
that probably sums up the reasons for my absence here.
itp is ending soon, which means we have to come up with our report there and then, and seriously speaking, we haven't even done 10% of the report? time's running out. damn it.
and i have no time to touch on it, why? im extremely tired. i have to rush here and there everyday and i have no time to sit down and work on the report. my grandpa is hospitalised, and visiting him means no computer access no internet access no working-mood access means no work done... to make things worse, my selfish father doesnt wanna let me use the laptop. it's like, i spend most of my time in the hospital (other than going to work, sp, nus, sleep) and he's so inconsiderate. like whatever.
now, i have bad news, very bad news. im still trying to accept it. life sucks now (well it could have been worse i tink)... school's going to reopen soon, but honestly speaking, how the hell do i find the mood to attend school in this kinda situation.
pretending not to know the truth is very painful. i know how everyone in the family is feeling. it's very tiring too.
learning to get on with life, while minding myself with all the things that happened, and preparing myself for the things that are going to happen. why is all these things happening to him?
then again, i look at the people around him, their families must be asking the same question.
i wonder what good science have done to us...
we must win the battle this time round! it's hard enough for him...
what an irony, when i was thinking that my life is so hard and tough, i overlook the misery he was going through...
why must things get to a very bad stage before we learn?
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anyway. enough of that. now that my disappearance is being accounted for, im out of here.
see you!
that probably sums up the reasons for my absence here.
itp is ending soon, which means we have to come up with our report there and then, and seriously speaking, we haven't even done 10% of the report? time's running out. damn it.
and i have no time to touch on it, why? im extremely tired. i have to rush here and there everyday and i have no time to sit down and work on the report. my grandpa is hospitalised, and visiting him means no computer access no internet access no working-mood access means no work done... to make things worse, my selfish father doesnt wanna let me use the laptop. it's like, i spend most of my time in the hospital (other than going to work, sp, nus, sleep) and he's so inconsiderate. like whatever.
now, i have bad news, very bad news. im still trying to accept it. life sucks now (well it could have been worse i tink)... school's going to reopen soon, but honestly speaking, how the hell do i find the mood to attend school in this kinda situation.
pretending not to know the truth is very painful. i know how everyone in the family is feeling. it's very tiring too.
learning to get on with life, while minding myself with all the things that happened, and preparing myself for the things that are going to happen. why is all these things happening to him?
then again, i look at the people around him, their families must be asking the same question.
i wonder what good science have done to us...
we must win the battle this time round! it's hard enough for him...
what an irony, when i was thinking that my life is so hard and tough, i overlook the misery he was going through...
why must things get to a very bad stage before we learn?
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anyway. enough of that. now that my disappearance is being accounted for, im out of here.
see you!
♥ Fiona, 10:52 PM.
